Self-Sabotage & My Plan to Overcoming It
- Sometimes you are your biggest obstacle
- Endless justifications
- Giving yourself permission to stay the same
- My self wants to stay the same because it's comfortable
- Our modern lives condition us, more than ever, to seek & expect comfort
- I've been the same weight for around 12 years
- Excluding my internship at Google where I gained 30+ pounds, lost it, & plateaued again
- I promise to tell that story in a future episode
- When I zoom out & think about those 12 years, I'm comfortable weighing 280 pounds
- Which sounds ridiculous to say out loud & publish on the web
- When I zoom in on the day to day I am uncomfortable being overweight
- When I was a kid I was worried I wouldn't be tall enough to ride a rollercoaster
- As an adult I'm worried that I'm too overweight to ride a rollercoaster
- So I have to ask my self, "why are you so comfortable being uncomfortable?" & "why are you protecting that short-term comfort from the long-term comfort?"
- It's nonsensical & this week my self-sabotage came to life in the form of not training jiu jitsu
- So I sat down to meditate, looking deeply into why I made these decisions & to see what I could learn about my self to overcome this form of sabotage in the future
- I have plenty of justifications for why I didn't go to class, like I told you I would
- We shipped a product update early Tuesday morning
- I felt weak after being sick the week before, losing some momentum
- We had a lot of meetings that required me to switch up my schedule & go to class at different times
- So I listened to my inner saboteur, didn't uphold the commitment I made in last week's episode, & I didn't go
- I also temporarily forgot why I'm doing all of this
- It's not to loose 💯 pounds, that's a small part of my bigger reason
- It's because I've committed to accomplishing the goal of going to Space
- If Elon Musk had texted me & said, "we have a ticket for you next week" I would not be able to go
- I'm getting ready now so I can go in the near future & I forgot that
- Instead...
